when I am weak, then I am strong

Each time He said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness."  So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can works through me.  That's why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.  2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I have a plethora of weaknesses.  The worst (in my mind at least) is that I often allow my emotions to rule me.  I've been lost in that place recently, completely overwhelmed by the depth of the feelings that I feel, and unwilling or unable to let them go.  I don't do anything superficially.  I'm an all or nothing girl.  There is no half way for me...and that definitely includes my emotions. 

My lifelong coping skills have been to stuff my emotions until they erupt, to walk away from situations where my emotions threaten to come out, to build a wall around my heart, and to push the people who mean the most to me away from me.  Here's the spoiler...none of my methods work!

I hit my breaking point this past week.  But, the beautiful thing was that God turned it into my breakthrough point.  (And again, God worked in ALL things for the good of those who love Him!)  Quietly, the Holy Spirit whispered to me, "My grace is all you need.  My power works best in weakness." 

What a relief!  I don't have to control my emotions on my own.  God gave me my emotions and He intricately created me.  He made me this crazy combo of deep feeling and all or nothing.  I'm praying that He would teach me His way to live with my emotions.  I fully believe that God can use them for His glory and my good. And, He already promised that when I am weak, He would be strong.