I wrote these words to a friend about my own singing at church on Sunday, and they stuck with me. What if I could always allow myself to be "not perfect, but awesome"? Would it be okay to be imperfect? Could I see myself as "awesome"? I'm still pondering.
I know that I'm not perfect. I'm human. I make mistakes all the time. But there is something in me that hates my own mistakes. I have a hard time forgiving myself. I am harder on myself than anyone else ever has been. I see my flaws, but not my strengths. I see the failures, but not the successes. I see the talents I wish I had in others, but not the incredible gifts that are already in me.
Is it possible to see myself the way I see others...through the eyes of God's grace? I know He forgives me and I know He loves me and I know He made me "perfectly". Can I learn to see me the way God sees me, with love and compassion and forgiveness? Can I learn to look at Him as my mirror and not at others in comparison?
The Spirit of God whispers to my heart, "Yes, yes, yes! You are fearfully and wonderfully made!" It is my choice to believe God's truth about me and reject the lies that the enemy speaks to me about myself. It is my choice to see myself in the "God mirror" and to love whom I see. It is my choice to receive the love and forgiveness freely offered by my heavenly Father. It is my choice to live as the beloved daughter of the King. I am choosing wisely! I am not perfect, but God made me awesome!
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Saturday, November 29, 2014
ALIVE
"One day she realized that she was not born to hide away, but to SHINE brightly! So she decided to stop listening to her fears and finally focus on what made her feel truly ALIVE! -Anna Taylor
I saw this quote on Facebook one day and it stuck with me. I started thinking about what makes me feel alive. I'm still thinking about it. I asked my family and close friends, "What makes you feel alive?" And now, if you are reading this, I am asking you. And I would love to hear your answer!
We live in a world that feeds our fears, doubts, and insecurities. If we listen to those lies, we shut down, hide, and stop shining. We are paralyzed by fear and we stop pursuing the things that make us feel alive. It's a vicious cycle that perpetuates itself and continues to grow unless we shut it down.
As for me, it is time for me to shine! I'm done listening to the fears and doubts and insecurities! I will follow after Jesus! I will make time to do the things that make me feel ALIVE!
I saw this quote on Facebook one day and it stuck with me. I started thinking about what makes me feel alive. I'm still thinking about it. I asked my family and close friends, "What makes you feel alive?" And now, if you are reading this, I am asking you. And I would love to hear your answer!
We live in a world that feeds our fears, doubts, and insecurities. If we listen to those lies, we shut down, hide, and stop shining. We are paralyzed by fear and we stop pursuing the things that make us feel alive. It's a vicious cycle that perpetuates itself and continues to grow unless we shut it down.
As for me, it is time for me to shine! I'm done listening to the fears and doubts and insecurities! I will follow after Jesus! I will make time to do the things that make me feel ALIVE!
Imperfect
I was looking at my reflection in the mirror the other day and making note of all the things I didn't like. I'm short. I'm overweight. My nose...so many things to say about my nose, and none of them are good. Fortunately, the Holy Spirit stopped me and asked, "What about the things you do like?" I like my hair...even with the gray. I like my eyes. I like the way my smile takes over my face. Pretty soon I was feeling better about myself. The truth of the matter is that no one who's opinion matters to me is looking at me and thinking "She needs to lose some weight. And, oh my gosh, what is with that nose?!" Why do I waste time thinking those things?
I am imperfect outside and inside. I am human and I will never reach perfection until I get to heaven, but I will continue to learn and change in this life. The truth is that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, but I am not perfectly made. In that same moment, I was reminded that where I am weak, Jesus is made strong. My flaws remind me of my desperate need for Him. My weaknesses draw me nearer to Jesus. I will not dwell on my imperfections, but I will embrace Jesus and allow Him to complete His good work in me!
I am imperfect outside and inside. I am human and I will never reach perfection until I get to heaven, but I will continue to learn and change in this life. The truth is that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, but I am not perfectly made. In that same moment, I was reminded that where I am weak, Jesus is made strong. My flaws remind me of my desperate need for Him. My weaknesses draw me nearer to Jesus. I will not dwell on my imperfections, but I will embrace Jesus and allow Him to complete His good work in me!
Saturday, November 1, 2014
Attitude of Gratitude
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, WITH THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things. Philippians 4:6-8
It's November...my month to intentionally practice an attitude of gratitude. Over and over in his letters to the early church, the Apostle Paul exhorts the Christians to "give thanks in all circumstances" (1Thessalonians 5:18). This is practical advice for living a life filled with joy and peace. What we think about tends to fill our minds and our hearts, and we believe it whether it is God's truth or not. Our human minds tend to think about what is wrong or might go wrong, how we've been hurt, what we fear, and the lies that the devil tells us about ourselves and others. My problem-solving brain loves to dwell on these things and think about how to fix them, but I never get to a solution. I just get buried under worry, doubt, fear, discouragement, and shame, and eventually depression sets in as I realize that I can't fix anything!
My favorite verses from Philippians remind me not to be anxious about ANYTHING...big or small, real or imagined. I am supposed to take EVERYTHING to Jesus. He can and will take care of all of it! That in itself should bring me to an attitude of gratitude! My prayers should be filled with thanksgiving and praise to the God who takes care of all of my needs and more! Leaving my worries and cares with Jesus and knowing that He will take care of them in ways that are better than mine brings incredible, divine peace into my spirit. And then, I must discipline my mind to think about things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy rather than continuing to think about the things I left with Him. Why would I go back to thinking about fears, lies, worries, and hurts when there are so many blessings to dwell on? It's a bad habit that God is breaking in me.
For the next thirty days, I am going to be intentional with my thoughts. I choose to focus on the truth and the things that are noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy. My words will be filled with thankfulness. I'm not expecting it to be easy and I know there will be times that I will fall into old habits, but God's grace is bigger than my failures. There will be a battle with my spiritual enemy. But, I will stand my ground and fight with an attitude of gratitude!
It's November...my month to intentionally practice an attitude of gratitude. Over and over in his letters to the early church, the Apostle Paul exhorts the Christians to "give thanks in all circumstances" (1Thessalonians 5:18). This is practical advice for living a life filled with joy and peace. What we think about tends to fill our minds and our hearts, and we believe it whether it is God's truth or not. Our human minds tend to think about what is wrong or might go wrong, how we've been hurt, what we fear, and the lies that the devil tells us about ourselves and others. My problem-solving brain loves to dwell on these things and think about how to fix them, but I never get to a solution. I just get buried under worry, doubt, fear, discouragement, and shame, and eventually depression sets in as I realize that I can't fix anything!
My favorite verses from Philippians remind me not to be anxious about ANYTHING...big or small, real or imagined. I am supposed to take EVERYTHING to Jesus. He can and will take care of all of it! That in itself should bring me to an attitude of gratitude! My prayers should be filled with thanksgiving and praise to the God who takes care of all of my needs and more! Leaving my worries and cares with Jesus and knowing that He will take care of them in ways that are better than mine brings incredible, divine peace into my spirit. And then, I must discipline my mind to think about things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy rather than continuing to think about the things I left with Him. Why would I go back to thinking about fears, lies, worries, and hurts when there are so many blessings to dwell on? It's a bad habit that God is breaking in me.
For the next thirty days, I am going to be intentional with my thoughts. I choose to focus on the truth and the things that are noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy. My words will be filled with thankfulness. I'm not expecting it to be easy and I know there will be times that I will fall into old habits, but God's grace is bigger than my failures. There will be a battle with my spiritual enemy. But, I will stand my ground and fight with an attitude of gratitude!
Saturday, October 4, 2014
metamorphosis
Metamorphosis: a change of physical form, structure, or substance especially by supernatural means; a striking alteration in appearance, character, or circumstances; a typically marked and more or less abrupt developmental change in the form or structure of an animal occurring subsequent to birth or hatching.
Yesterday, I was teaching about fetal bone formation, and I heard myself say, "Change happens from the inside out." I stopped right then and pondered what I had said. That was profound. I was still "chewing" on it last night while Christopher and I were driving home. In my spirit I heard the word metamorphosis.
I'm in a strange place in my life. God is doing deep things in me. Sometimes I feel shaken and insecure because I am changing and I don't fully understand. But, I am becoming the Dawn Marie Karr that God created me to be. His supernatural power is changing me from the inside out.
I want to see and understand the amazing things that happen inside a chrysalis when a caterpillar becomes a monarch butterfly. I want to see inside myself and know what exactly God is doing and how I will look when the metamorphosis is finished. IMPOSSIBLE on both accounts! God's ways and His thoughts are higher than mine. Who am I to question Him?
I feel hidden in my chrysalis; safe and secure like the caterpillar. I am not the completely transparent person that I once was. I find myself torn between the comfort of my chrysalis and the longing to spread my beautiful wings and fly. I choose to trust my Father and know that His work in me is GOOD! He will faithfully complete it and I will emerge from my metamorphosis as His glorious creation!
Yesterday, I was teaching about fetal bone formation, and I heard myself say, "Change happens from the inside out." I stopped right then and pondered what I had said. That was profound. I was still "chewing" on it last night while Christopher and I were driving home. In my spirit I heard the word metamorphosis.
I'm in a strange place in my life. God is doing deep things in me. Sometimes I feel shaken and insecure because I am changing and I don't fully understand. But, I am becoming the Dawn Marie Karr that God created me to be. His supernatural power is changing me from the inside out.
I want to see and understand the amazing things that happen inside a chrysalis when a caterpillar becomes a monarch butterfly. I want to see inside myself and know what exactly God is doing and how I will look when the metamorphosis is finished. IMPOSSIBLE on both accounts! God's ways and His thoughts are higher than mine. Who am I to question Him?
I feel hidden in my chrysalis; safe and secure like the caterpillar. I am not the completely transparent person that I once was. I find myself torn between the comfort of my chrysalis and the longing to spread my beautiful wings and fly. I choose to trust my Father and know that His work in me is GOOD! He will faithfully complete it and I will emerge from my metamorphosis as His glorious creation!
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Being amazing
Amazing: causing great surprise or wonder (Merriam Webster's dictionary)
For as long as I can remember, I have wanted my life to be amazing. I want to travel the world and see spectacular places. I want to create poetry, or music, or art that would speak to someones soul. I want to win a race or run a marathon. I want to do something that matters; something that would change the world. Something that would shout, "Here is a person with an amazing life!"
If you look at my life, it appears to be filled with ordinary things. I've seen it that way too. God is teaching me to see the amazing in my life. Maybe no one else will ever see it, but God sees it. I see my amazing life in my marriage. My wonderful husband chose ME as his life-partner and he loves ME! Our life together is amazing! I see amazing when I look at our son, who isn't supposed to exist according to medical opinions, and see the thoughtful and caring young man that he is becoming. I see an amazing life when I think of my closest friends; friendships forged through time and struggles. I see amazing when I remember that I am a cancer survivor. I promised myself that I would never stop being grateful, and yet, I need to be reminded. I see my amazing life when I watch my students smile and hug me in the hall, and when I see them return to visit years later. I see my amazing life when I read in the Bible that God loves me so much that He gave His only Son.
I still want to travel, and write poetry and music, and run a marathon, and change the world. Maybe I will someday, but I already have an amazing life!
For as long as I can remember, I have wanted my life to be amazing. I want to travel the world and see spectacular places. I want to create poetry, or music, or art that would speak to someones soul. I want to win a race or run a marathon. I want to do something that matters; something that would change the world. Something that would shout, "Here is a person with an amazing life!"
If you look at my life, it appears to be filled with ordinary things. I've seen it that way too. God is teaching me to see the amazing in my life. Maybe no one else will ever see it, but God sees it. I see my amazing life in my marriage. My wonderful husband chose ME as his life-partner and he loves ME! Our life together is amazing! I see amazing when I look at our son, who isn't supposed to exist according to medical opinions, and see the thoughtful and caring young man that he is becoming. I see an amazing life when I think of my closest friends; friendships forged through time and struggles. I see amazing when I remember that I am a cancer survivor. I promised myself that I would never stop being grateful, and yet, I need to be reminded. I see my amazing life when I watch my students smile and hug me in the hall, and when I see them return to visit years later. I see my amazing life when I read in the Bible that God loves me so much that He gave His only Son.
I still want to travel, and write poetry and music, and run a marathon, and change the world. Maybe I will someday, but I already have an amazing life!
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Breaking free
Breaking free sounds like a good thing, doesn't it? The tough part about being free is that something has to break. And, for me, breaking is usually painful. I picture myself 6 months ago bound by thick metal chains. Chains of expectations, fears, doubts, and more. The breaking started in March; bit by bit, link by link of the chains that I had collected throughout my life. I have cried more in the last 6 months than in the other 44 and a half years of my life put together. But I am getting free, and that makes it all worth it!
I ran today for the first time in weeks. And I ran without my GPS watch since the battery was dead...I call that Divine intervention! I ran without any expectations of time or distance. And I loved every minute, every stride! I discovered that I have been held captive by my own expectations of myself and of other people. And I realized that those chains had finally broken this past week through yet another painful situation. I'm learning to embrace and learn from the pain because it means I am breaking free. I am holding on to Romans 8:28...And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. It means that God is doing His perfect work in me to make me His girl.
The challenges aren't over. I have to choose to live in freedom every day. I have to choose to live without expectations of myself or anyone else. I have to choose to fight fear and doubt with God's truth. I have to choose to walk each day by faith, knowing that there might still be pain. The chains feel safe and familiar, but I don't want that anymore! I am not going back! I am breaking free!
I ran today for the first time in weeks. And I ran without my GPS watch since the battery was dead...I call that Divine intervention! I ran without any expectations of time or distance. And I loved every minute, every stride! I discovered that I have been held captive by my own expectations of myself and of other people. And I realized that those chains had finally broken this past week through yet another painful situation. I'm learning to embrace and learn from the pain because it means I am breaking free. I am holding on to Romans 8:28...And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. It means that God is doing His perfect work in me to make me His girl.
The challenges aren't over. I have to choose to live in freedom every day. I have to choose to live without expectations of myself or anyone else. I have to choose to fight fear and doubt with God's truth. I have to choose to walk each day by faith, knowing that there might still be pain. The chains feel safe and familiar, but I don't want that anymore! I am not going back! I am breaking free!
Saturday, September 6, 2014
This is me...
This morning I wished to be an artist who could express her deep feelings in paintings or sculpture that people would see and try to understand. This morning I wished to be a songwriter who could express her soul with music that people would listen to and appreciate. But, this is me...I am an intense woman of words, both written and spoken. Sometimes that intensity is too much for people. I'm sorry, but not really, because I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God.
I'm in a season of change. I'm so grateful for the constants in my life...Jesus, my amazing husband, Christopher, my family. Change makes me feel unbalanced and shaken and uneasy and sad. I often reach out for someone to steady me and keep me from falling, but sometimes I fall anyway. There are pain and tears and sadness and healing that must happen...I don't like that. It's uncomfortable and I feel it deeply. Must I fall? Couldn't I just be a superficial person so that the wounds don't hurt so much and the healing happens more quickly? Why can't I be my own rock, my own island, my own stability?
This is me...I am a deep person. I have deep relationships. I feel deep sadness and deep joy and deep love. I look for symbolism and deeper meaning in everything.
This is me...I must express my life and my feelings, both good and bad, with words. If I don't, I might self-destruct.
This is me...I need people. I must have meaningful connection with people, even though it causes hurt and disappointment.
This is me...I will find the silver lining in every cloud eventually. I will learn a life lesson from every situation.
I learned lessons from Robin Williams. Even a person as deeply loved as he was sometimes can't feel it through the darkness and desperation. A person who is used to being strong for others might not know how to ask for help. Sometimes those cries for help aren't heard or they are ignored and brushed off. I think about these things...and learn.
Lessons for living. Living, following Jesus, choosing life and hope, finding meaning, loving, learning, changing, finding people who want to travel this road with me. This is me.
I'm in a season of change. I'm so grateful for the constants in my life...Jesus, my amazing husband, Christopher, my family. Change makes me feel unbalanced and shaken and uneasy and sad. I often reach out for someone to steady me and keep me from falling, but sometimes I fall anyway. There are pain and tears and sadness and healing that must happen...I don't like that. It's uncomfortable and I feel it deeply. Must I fall? Couldn't I just be a superficial person so that the wounds don't hurt so much and the healing happens more quickly? Why can't I be my own rock, my own island, my own stability?
This is me...I am a deep person. I have deep relationships. I feel deep sadness and deep joy and deep love. I look for symbolism and deeper meaning in everything.
This is me...I must express my life and my feelings, both good and bad, with words. If I don't, I might self-destruct.
This is me...I need people. I must have meaningful connection with people, even though it causes hurt and disappointment.
This is me...I will find the silver lining in every cloud eventually. I will learn a life lesson from every situation.
I learned lessons from Robin Williams. Even a person as deeply loved as he was sometimes can't feel it through the darkness and desperation. A person who is used to being strong for others might not know how to ask for help. Sometimes those cries for help aren't heard or they are ignored and brushed off. I think about these things...and learn.
Lessons for living. Living, following Jesus, choosing life and hope, finding meaning, loving, learning, changing, finding people who want to travel this road with me. This is me.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Strong roots
SBP has become a summer resident at our house. SBP (Summer Botany Project) is a gorgeous plant that belongs to a friend who does not want to leave her at school all summer. She graced our dining room this year until she got knocked off of her perch. Uprooted, dirt everywhere, plant parts covering the floor...recovery seemed hopeless for SBP. I picked up the salvageable parts, put them in water, and headed to the nearest greenhouse for some root stimulator. When I started asking questions of one of the employees, she quickly took me to see the same kind of plant and told me exactly how they propagate it. Cut it into 4 inch sections, dip the cut end into root stimulating powder and stick it in the soil, and water it. I followed her directions and held my breath hoping for the best! My son commented the other day that SBP looks better than she did before she fell...and he is right! What does this have to do with me and words that I want to live by???
The past year has been a rough one for me. I felt like a plant that crashed to the floor...uprooted and broken into pieces...at times, hopeless. Jesus picked up my broken pieces and trimmed them up. He brought people alongside me to pray and speak words of life to my heart (if you are one of those people, I will always be grateful!)...awesome root stimulator! And then He stuck me right back into the soil of my life to form new roots and grow. He waters me with His Words...my Bible is filled with them. I am sinking my new roots deeply into God. And I am growing and looking better than ever...at least I think so! :)
The past year has been a rough one for me. I felt like a plant that crashed to the floor...uprooted and broken into pieces...at times, hopeless. Jesus picked up my broken pieces and trimmed them up. He brought people alongside me to pray and speak words of life to my heart (if you are one of those people, I will always be grateful!)...awesome root stimulator! And then He stuck me right back into the soil of my life to form new roots and grow. He waters me with His Words...my Bible is filled with them. I am sinking my new roots deeply into God. And I am growing and looking better than ever...at least I think so! :)
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Embracing 45
I am going to be 45 years old next week. Traditionally, ages ending in 5 have been hard for me, at least 25 and 35 were. It isn't so much the year itself, but the "big one" that follows. And now I find myself almost on the "downside" to 50. When did that happen??? Anyway, I've decided not to let 45 get to me. I am choosing wisely (maybe that comes with age!) to make this year the best year of my life so far.
This year I will live victoriously...overcoming fears and doubts that have plagued me my entire life.
This year I will be wife and mom wholeheartedly.
This year I will live in an attitude of gratitude.
This year I will run a half marathon and be healthy.
This year I will be a teacher who is older and wiser and better.
This year I will make time for things that bring joy to my heart...writing, piano, guitar, singing.
This year I will love fully without expectations.
This year my faith will grow and I will become more dependent on God.
This year I will let the light of Jesus shine through me like never before.
This year I will live one prayer at a time, one choice at a time, one moment at a time, one day at a time.
Yes, 45 is going to be amazing and I am embracing it!
This year I will live victoriously...overcoming fears and doubts that have plagued me my entire life.
This year I will be wife and mom wholeheartedly.
This year I will live in an attitude of gratitude.
This year I will run a half marathon and be healthy.
This year I will be a teacher who is older and wiser and better.
This year I will make time for things that bring joy to my heart...writing, piano, guitar, singing.
This year I will love fully without expectations.
This year my faith will grow and I will become more dependent on God.
This year I will let the light of Jesus shine through me like never before.
This year I will live one prayer at a time, one choice at a time, one moment at a time, one day at a time.
Yes, 45 is going to be amazing and I am embracing it!
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
Reconnecting
If I could describe this summer in one word, it would be reconnecting. I hate feeling disconnected, and when I say that, I mean from people. Staying connected and maintaining relationships takes time, energy, effort, and choices. It's a price I will gladly pay, but not everyone will. Since I've been anemic this past year, my energy has been low and my relationships have suffered. The summer has been spent reconnecting...with God, with myself, with people.
Unfortunately, my relationship with God is usually the first one I let slide. I purposed in my heart to aggressively dig into my Bible and intentionally spend time praying and listening. I was struggling emotionally, believing lies about myself, and needing truth. I still desperately need truth to keep me from struggling and falling for the lies. I will actively pursue this relationship as my first priority and choose life!
I had lost sight of who I was. I forgot my roots, my heritage. I overlooked my God-given gifts and talents. I forgot that I am fearfully and wonderfully and intentionally made. I am reconnecting with the truth of who I am. I am a child and a friend of God. God has given me new dreams and goals and ways to enlarge my tent. (Isaiah 54:2-4) He is doing a new thing in me (Isaiah 43:18-19) and using the Dawn that He created. I must continue to remind myself of God's truth about me!
I have been blessed with time to reconnect with people. The summer has been filled with precious moments of quality time with people who are close to my heart. I've realized how important it is for me to stay connected. When I feel disconnected, I will make the effort to reconnect. It is worth it!
Unfortunately, my relationship with God is usually the first one I let slide. I purposed in my heart to aggressively dig into my Bible and intentionally spend time praying and listening. I was struggling emotionally, believing lies about myself, and needing truth. I still desperately need truth to keep me from struggling and falling for the lies. I will actively pursue this relationship as my first priority and choose life!
I had lost sight of who I was. I forgot my roots, my heritage. I overlooked my God-given gifts and talents. I forgot that I am fearfully and wonderfully and intentionally made. I am reconnecting with the truth of who I am. I am a child and a friend of God. God has given me new dreams and goals and ways to enlarge my tent. (Isaiah 54:2-4) He is doing a new thing in me (Isaiah 43:18-19) and using the Dawn that He created. I must continue to remind myself of God's truth about me!
I have been blessed with time to reconnect with people. The summer has been filled with precious moments of quality time with people who are close to my heart. I've realized how important it is for me to stay connected. When I feel disconnected, I will make the effort to reconnect. It is worth it!
Monday, July 28, 2014
who I am
My life has changed...for the better! I'm almost 45 and I am finally seeing the truth about who I am. It took some time in the bottom of the pit of despair before I realized that people don't define me; God does. I've spent the last 2 months aggressively digging into my Bible, seeking to find myself. My heart believed so many lies that needed to be uprooted and burned. My name means "break of day" and "joy and praise", but the light had gone out and the joy was no where to be found. Some might say that I was in a midlife crisis...and maybe I was. I call it a turning point. A time when the lies were first replaced with the truth. The beginning of a truth journey. A journey that will continue for the rest of my life. I'm not immune to lies, but I am certainly more aware and daily filling myself with truth. The truth has indeed set me free!
I wrote this today. This is who I am. This is God's truth about me.
Wife, mother, friend
I wrote this today. This is who I am. This is God's truth about me.
Who
I Am
Wife, mother, friend
Daughter,
sister, granddaughter
Teacher,
counselor
Listener,
encourager, believer, optimist
Giver
of Dawn hugs
Music
lover, runner
Sunny
on the inside
Beloved
daughter and friend of God
Forgiven,
redeemed, righteous
Called
to an eternal purpose
Bringer
of Light to the darkness
Lover
and worshiper of my Savior
Warrior
for the Truth
Joy
and praise
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Valuable
I am a number person. I practice division in my head with license plate numbers. I count steps as I walk. I count the bunnies who scurry out of my way as I run. I stand on the scale every morning. I keep track of my running times and distances with my GPS watch. I pay attention to the number of likes my blog entries get on Facebook. I let numbers determine my value and how I feel about myself. Ridiculous!
God has given me a gift...the ability to see value and potential in people and to encourage them. Why is it so hard for me to see my own value and potential? Because the enemy wants to shut me down. If I am convinced that I am worthless, I withdraw from people and the light of Jesus in me is never seen. Pretty good tactic, except I'm on to it now! I'm aware and watching and fighting the lies of the enemy with the truth of God's Word.
I cannot allow numbers, or people, or myself to define my worth. The bottom line is that I am valuable regardless of any numbers! God sent His only Son to die for ME! That means I'm priceless to Him!
God has given me a gift...the ability to see value and potential in people and to encourage them. Why is it so hard for me to see my own value and potential? Because the enemy wants to shut me down. If I am convinced that I am worthless, I withdraw from people and the light of Jesus in me is never seen. Pretty good tactic, except I'm on to it now! I'm aware and watching and fighting the lies of the enemy with the truth of God's Word.
I cannot allow numbers, or people, or myself to define my worth. The bottom line is that I am valuable regardless of any numbers! God sent His only Son to die for ME! That means I'm priceless to Him!
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Running my own race
Facebook messes with my head sometimes...and apparently they do it on purpose. I get caught up in comparisons with my Facebook friends...my appearance, my running times and distances, my summer plans, my accomplishments, etc. Crazy! Somehow Facebook convinces me that I should be discontent in my amazing life! Ridiculous! I haven't given up Facebook...I love knowing what my friends are up to! And I love being able to communicate! But, there are days when I have to literally walk away from the comparisons.
God has called me to be someone and live a life that is different from anyone else. There is only one Dawn Marie Dow Karr and I am the only person who can run the race that God set before me. Trying to be like anyone else will only lead to frustration. As a Christian, I am called to become more like Jesus, but God made that possible for me. I will never be perfect. I will never look like a model. I will never win races. I may never win awards for teaching. I may never live what some would consider to be an exciting life. I will be the best Dawn Karr that I can be with God's help! I will run my own race at my own speed (literally and figuratively!) and love every minute of it! I will keep my eyes on Jesus who is waiting for me at the finish line!
God has called me to be someone and live a life that is different from anyone else. There is only one Dawn Marie Dow Karr and I am the only person who can run the race that God set before me. Trying to be like anyone else will only lead to frustration. As a Christian, I am called to become more like Jesus, but God made that possible for me. I will never be perfect. I will never look like a model. I will never win races. I may never win awards for teaching. I may never live what some would consider to be an exciting life. I will be the best Dawn Karr that I can be with God's help! I will run my own race at my own speed (literally and figuratively!) and love every minute of it! I will keep my eyes on Jesus who is waiting for me at the finish line!
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Take captive every thought...revisited
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5
My brain is always working...even when I'm sleeping. I'm a thinker and a planner and sometimes the stuff in my head consumes me. My mind obsesses on conversations, situations, fears, doubts, and lies. Where does all that junk come from? The seeds of those weeds are planted by the enemy. If I let those nasty seeds take root and grow in my head, there is no telling what craziness I might do when my thoughts run amuck. I've been living that way for too long!
I am learning to take captive EVERY THOUGHT. I am learning to recognize those seeds and dig them out before they can take over. I have to replace the lies with the truth. I'm aggressively seeking God's truth from the Bible. It takes discipline to keep my brain on the right track, but it's worth it. My beliefs, my words, and my actions are controlled by my thoughts. The fruit of my life is dependent on the seeds that grow in my mind and spread to my heart and my spirit. I am choosing to plant Godly seeds in my brain so that my life produces Godly fruit!
My brain is always working...even when I'm sleeping. I'm a thinker and a planner and sometimes the stuff in my head consumes me. My mind obsesses on conversations, situations, fears, doubts, and lies. Where does all that junk come from? The seeds of those weeds are planted by the enemy. If I let those nasty seeds take root and grow in my head, there is no telling what craziness I might do when my thoughts run amuck. I've been living that way for too long!
I am learning to take captive EVERY THOUGHT. I am learning to recognize those seeds and dig them out before they can take over. I have to replace the lies with the truth. I'm aggressively seeking God's truth from the Bible. It takes discipline to keep my brain on the right track, but it's worth it. My beliefs, my words, and my actions are controlled by my thoughts. The fruit of my life is dependent on the seeds that grow in my mind and spread to my heart and my spirit. I am choosing to plant Godly seeds in my brain so that my life produces Godly fruit!
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Purpose
I decided years ago that I wanted to live a life filled with purpose. I want to be a world-changer...even if it is just in my little corner of the world. I want to know that I am needed and have a job to do. I am always on the lookout for meaning and purpose, which is really why I started writing this blog. I believe that God created all of us with a desire to have purpose.
Adam and Eve were intentionally created. God made Adam to be in relationship with Him. And then God made Eve to be in relationship with Adam. Jesus said, "The most important [commandment] is this...Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." (Mark 12:29-31) Relationships with God and with each other should still be our purpose!
What about the things in life that seem to serve no purpose? I have often felt like trials and tribulations are only keeping me from being useful. Romans 8:28 says "And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." That applies to all of us who are Christians. All of us are called to His purpose. I can be confident that every difficulty that I face has a purpose in my life and that God will use it for my good. Neil T. Anderson says in his book Victory Over the Darkness , "People tend to look for quick-fix solutions to difficult situations. But God's plan is for you to hang in there and grow up."
It is strangely reassuring to me that even the rough times in my life have a purpose. I pray for growth and change in my life as I walk in the valleys filled with shadows. I pray that God will use these times in my life to make me the girl He wants me to be. I pray that I will not only survive, but my relationship with Jesus will become stronger and closer. And that is the ultimate purpose!
Adam and Eve were intentionally created. God made Adam to be in relationship with Him. And then God made Eve to be in relationship with Adam. Jesus said, "The most important [commandment] is this...Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." (Mark 12:29-31) Relationships with God and with each other should still be our purpose!
What about the things in life that seem to serve no purpose? I have often felt like trials and tribulations are only keeping me from being useful. Romans 8:28 says "And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." That applies to all of us who are Christians. All of us are called to His purpose. I can be confident that every difficulty that I face has a purpose in my life and that God will use it for my good. Neil T. Anderson says in his book Victory Over the Darkness , "People tend to look for quick-fix solutions to difficult situations. But God's plan is for you to hang in there and grow up."
It is strangely reassuring to me that even the rough times in my life have a purpose. I pray for growth and change in my life as I walk in the valleys filled with shadows. I pray that God will use these times in my life to make me the girl He wants me to be. I pray that I will not only survive, but my relationship with Jesus will become stronger and closer. And that is the ultimate purpose!
Sunday, June 22, 2014
No apologies
Last week, I accidentally discovered that I had been "unfriended" on Facebook. That hurt my heart and I questioned myself about what I had done. I felt like I had messed up somehow by being myself. I am not shy about sharing my joys and my struggles, and I definitely have lots of room for improvement. But, I have heard myself apologize to people for being me...the person that God created...Dawn Marie Dow Karr.
This morning, my mom said to me, "It took me a long time to realize that it is sin when I try to be someone else. I'm saying the way God made me isn't good enough." Wow! Way to bottom line it, Mom! I took some time to repent to God for being apologetically me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made! (Psalm 139) God made me an all or nothin' girl who loves deeply and lives enthusiastically and out loud. No more apologies for living the life that God called me to live!
This morning, my mom said to me, "It took me a long time to realize that it is sin when I try to be someone else. I'm saying the way God made me isn't good enough." Wow! Way to bottom line it, Mom! I took some time to repent to God for being apologetically me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made! (Psalm 139) God made me an all or nothin' girl who loves deeply and lives enthusiastically and out loud. No more apologies for living the life that God called me to live!
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Throw off everything that hinders
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:1-2
These are becoming some of my favorite Bible verses. This morning I was thinking about the phrase, "let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles". I carry around so much physical, emotional, and spiritual junk! Things like extra body weight, fear, shame, hurt, unmet expectations, unforgiveness, sin, and lies about myself weigh me down. No wonder I feel tired and burdened, but it all comes down to me choosing to let it go! The King James Version says, "let us lay aside every weight". I lay things aside every day when I finish with them. Why is it so hard for me to put down the junk? The truth is I am comfortable and complacent about my junk. I put up with it until I absolutely can't stand it anymore and then things need to change!
My hair is an excellent example, although not terribly profound, of something that entangles me! It has been getting longer and longer for several years, but recently, I hit my limit! I am tired of it weighing me down and entangling me...literally! I am finally going to lay some of it aside today! And that is just the beginning of throwing off the things that hinder me!
Hebrews 12:1-2
These are becoming some of my favorite Bible verses. This morning I was thinking about the phrase, "let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles". I carry around so much physical, emotional, and spiritual junk! Things like extra body weight, fear, shame, hurt, unmet expectations, unforgiveness, sin, and lies about myself weigh me down. No wonder I feel tired and burdened, but it all comes down to me choosing to let it go! The King James Version says, "let us lay aside every weight". I lay things aside every day when I finish with them. Why is it so hard for me to put down the junk? The truth is I am comfortable and complacent about my junk. I put up with it until I absolutely can't stand it anymore and then things need to change!
My hair is an excellent example, although not terribly profound, of something that entangles me! It has been getting longer and longer for several years, but recently, I hit my limit! I am tired of it weighing me down and entangling me...literally! I am finally going to lay some of it aside today! And that is just the beginning of throwing off the things that hinder me!
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Laughter
Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among the nations, "The Lord has done great things for them." Psalm 126:2
All the days of the oppressed are wretched, but the cheerful heart has a continual feast.
Proverbs 15:15
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17:22
She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. Proverbs 31:25
Last night, I was blessed to have time with good friends at a wedding reception. We laughed more than I have in a long time, and I thought to myself, "I forgot what my laugh sounds like!" Yikes! I take life so seriously and it crushes my spirit and dries up my bones! I have intentionally looked for opportunities to laugh with Joe and Christopher in the last couple of weeks...and I have found my laugh again! It felt so good to laugh hard and out loud last night...it really was good medicine for me!
I want people to see Jesus in me because I am quick to laugh and filled with joy. I want to be like the Proverbs 31 woman who laughs at the days to come. Maybe the more I practice laughter, the easier it will be for me. That's my goal...to be filled with joy and laugh easily! I will seek out opportunities to laugh with my family and friends this summer. Are you ready to laugh with me???
All the days of the oppressed are wretched, but the cheerful heart has a continual feast.
Proverbs 15:15
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17:22
She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. Proverbs 31:25
Last night, I was blessed to have time with good friends at a wedding reception. We laughed more than I have in a long time, and I thought to myself, "I forgot what my laugh sounds like!" Yikes! I take life so seriously and it crushes my spirit and dries up my bones! I have intentionally looked for opportunities to laugh with Joe and Christopher in the last couple of weeks...and I have found my laugh again! It felt so good to laugh hard and out loud last night...it really was good medicine for me!
I want people to see Jesus in me because I am quick to laugh and filled with joy. I want to be like the Proverbs 31 woman who laughs at the days to come. Maybe the more I practice laughter, the easier it will be for me. That's my goal...to be filled with joy and laugh easily! I will seek out opportunities to laugh with my family and friends this summer. Are you ready to laugh with me???
Friday, June 13, 2014
the battle is already won
Jesus won every battle when He shed His blood and gave His life on the cross for us. So why am I always exhausted from the fight? I didn't get it, until this morning. When I started out on my run, I said, "God, I really want to hear from you this morning." And He answered with some awesome analogies and a revelation in my spirit that the battle is already won!
Right at the end of my first mile is a hill that always slows me down. At the top of the hill is a pole with a basketball hoop, and I keep my eyes on it as I work my way up. I know once I reach that pole, the worst part of my run is over! There are 2 life lessons here. There will be an end to the fight, even if I can't see it. And, I must keep my eyes on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of my faith. I just have to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward.
And that is the hard part for me! My focus is easily deterred by the distractions that the enemy sends my way. I stop to engage in swordplay and fancy footwork with the devil's minions and I lose my focus. I get exhausted and overwhelmed. I focus on me instead of my Savior. I forget that Jesus already won this battle and every one that is to come.
In my last mile today, I looked ahead and saw a big German Shepherd coming toward me. I am not afraid of dogs, but I didn't know this one and I was a bit wary. I slowed to a walk and tried to avoid him, but he followed me. I didn't want to run, because I didn't want him to chase me. Completely and totally distracted from my goal, I was focused on getting this dog to leave me alone. Finally, I summoned my toughest teacher voice and said, "NO! GO HOME!" I had to say it several times, but eventually, he turned and trotted off.
This is the second analogy God gave me. The devil sends big dogs my way to slow me down or stop me and make me lose my focus. Jesus already fought those battles and won by His blood! I just need to say, "NO! GO HOME!" to those dogs and keep moving forward! I am safe and protected in the shadow of the Almighty Who won the battles for ME!
Right at the end of my first mile is a hill that always slows me down. At the top of the hill is a pole with a basketball hoop, and I keep my eyes on it as I work my way up. I know once I reach that pole, the worst part of my run is over! There are 2 life lessons here. There will be an end to the fight, even if I can't see it. And, I must keep my eyes on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of my faith. I just have to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward.
And that is the hard part for me! My focus is easily deterred by the distractions that the enemy sends my way. I stop to engage in swordplay and fancy footwork with the devil's minions and I lose my focus. I get exhausted and overwhelmed. I focus on me instead of my Savior. I forget that Jesus already won this battle and every one that is to come.
In my last mile today, I looked ahead and saw a big German Shepherd coming toward me. I am not afraid of dogs, but I didn't know this one and I was a bit wary. I slowed to a walk and tried to avoid him, but he followed me. I didn't want to run, because I didn't want him to chase me. Completely and totally distracted from my goal, I was focused on getting this dog to leave me alone. Finally, I summoned my toughest teacher voice and said, "NO! GO HOME!" I had to say it several times, but eventually, he turned and trotted off.
This is the second analogy God gave me. The devil sends big dogs my way to slow me down or stop me and make me lose my focus. Jesus already fought those battles and won by His blood! I just need to say, "NO! GO HOME!" to those dogs and keep moving forward! I am safe and protected in the shadow of the Almighty Who won the battles for ME!
Friday, June 6, 2014
Joshua
I heard someone say that everyone can find themselves in the Bible. There have been times when I have identified with Hannah, Mary the mother of Jesus, Timothy, and others. But, I almost always go back to Joshua. His name means Yahweh is salvation. He is well known as one of the Israelite spies in the land of Canaan and as the successor of Moses as the leader of the nation of Israel and as the leader of an unusual attack on Jericho. But, we first see him leading the battle against the Amalekites in Exodus 17:8-16. These 9 verses really hit me today and I saw many parallels in my own life.
Moses gave Joshua the order to choose some fighting men and go into battle against the Amalekites. Moses took Aaron and Hur with him to the top of a hill, and there he held up his hands. As long as Moses' hands were in the air, Israel was winning, but when his hands dropped, Amalek was winning. Aaron and Hur stood on each side of Moses and they each held up an arm until sunset when Joshua and his army defeated the Amalekites. I love verse 14...The Lord said to Moses, "Write this on a scroll as something to be remembered and make sure that Joshua hears it, because I will completely blot out the memory of Amalek from under heaven." And Moses built an altar to remember the battle and he named it "The Lord is my Banner".
I am in a battle. I need people to fight alongside of me and I need a Moses, an Aaron, and a Hur up on the hillside. As much as I would like to win this battle on my own, I can't. God knows who I need, and I believe He will show me. I certainly need HIM! One thing I know for certain, the victory is ours! And the memory of this battle will be blotted out, but I will remember it because this is a turning point for me. This will be the time I look back on and say, "That's when things changed! That was a crucial moment for me!" And I will build an altar of words to remember this battle and the victory!
Moses gave Joshua the order to choose some fighting men and go into battle against the Amalekites. Moses took Aaron and Hur with him to the top of a hill, and there he held up his hands. As long as Moses' hands were in the air, Israel was winning, but when his hands dropped, Amalek was winning. Aaron and Hur stood on each side of Moses and they each held up an arm until sunset when Joshua and his army defeated the Amalekites. I love verse 14...The Lord said to Moses, "Write this on a scroll as something to be remembered and make sure that Joshua hears it, because I will completely blot out the memory of Amalek from under heaven." And Moses built an altar to remember the battle and he named it "The Lord is my Banner".
I am in a battle. I need people to fight alongside of me and I need a Moses, an Aaron, and a Hur up on the hillside. As much as I would like to win this battle on my own, I can't. God knows who I need, and I believe He will show me. I certainly need HIM! One thing I know for certain, the victory is ours! And the memory of this battle will be blotted out, but I will remember it because this is a turning point for me. This will be the time I look back on and say, "That's when things changed! That was a crucial moment for me!" And I will build an altar of words to remember this battle and the victory!
Monday, June 2, 2014
Facing the fears
I am done with paralyzing fear! I mean it...I have had it! This is the time for me to face the fears that stop me in my tracks. The battle is on...and it has been going on. But this time it is different. Right now, I'm fighting mad at the enemy who keeps bringing fear into my life. I'm done cowering in a corner whenever situations arise that make me doubt myself and bring fear. And this time I realize the battle is already won! The devil is going to keep shooting fear arrows at me, because they used to work. Not any more!
I'm sick of thinking about my fears and talking about them! I'm choosing to be obsessed with Jesus! My mind will be occupied with Him and His Words! I will dwell on thoughts of hopes and dreams that came from God! I will aggressively dig into my Bible for truth so there is no room in my mind for lies, and fear, and worry! It is going to be a fight! I am going to need people behind me and beside me urging me forward and fighting for me.
This afternoon, I visited the roof of Christopher's school. Not something I would normally do...since heights are a fear trigger. But, Christopher loves to be on a roof and I decided it was time for me to face that fear again and I WON! I hope that the summer brings more opportunities for me to face my fears...spiritually, emotionally, and physically. It is time for the fear to lose its power over me!
I'm sick of thinking about my fears and talking about them! I'm choosing to be obsessed with Jesus! My mind will be occupied with Him and His Words! I will dwell on thoughts of hopes and dreams that came from God! I will aggressively dig into my Bible for truth so there is no room in my mind for lies, and fear, and worry! It is going to be a fight! I am going to need people behind me and beside me urging me forward and fighting for me.
This afternoon, I visited the roof of Christopher's school. Not something I would normally do...since heights are a fear trigger. But, Christopher loves to be on a roof and I decided it was time for me to face that fear again and I WON! I hope that the summer brings more opportunities for me to face my fears...spiritually, emotionally, and physically. It is time for the fear to lose its power over me!
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Letting go
It is no secret that I am a control freak and, therefore, a resistor of changes that are out of my control. My life seems to be filled with those changes right now. Students that I've invested my heart in are graduating and moving on. I am packing up my classroom for the 4th time in 5 years, although the new room will be GLORIOUS. Christopher is finishing first grade and the time when he needs his mom is flying past me. Everywhere I look, I see change looming and it puts me on edge.
This morning, God asked me simple questions. "Will you trust Me?" Yes, Lord. I choose to trust You. "Will you believe that I have plans for good and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope?" (Jeremiah 29:11) Yes, Lord I choose to believe. "Do you know in your heart that I can and I will turn ALL THINGS for good for those who love Me?" (Romans 8:28) Yes, Lord. I know in my heart. "Will you let go of the things that are causing worry and weighing on your heart?" Yes, Lord. I choose to let go...again and again.
This morning, God asked me simple questions. "Will you trust Me?" Yes, Lord. I choose to trust You. "Will you believe that I have plans for good and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope?" (Jeremiah 29:11) Yes, Lord I choose to believe. "Do you know in your heart that I can and I will turn ALL THINGS for good for those who love Me?" (Romans 8:28) Yes, Lord. I know in my heart. "Will you let go of the things that are causing worry and weighing on your heart?" Yes, Lord. I choose to let go...again and again.
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Extraordinary
I live an ordinary life, but since high school, I have wanted to do something amazing and be a world-changer. I dream of being the wife and mother described in Proverbs 31. I dream of writing beautiful poetry, or a book, or soul-stirring music. I dream of conquering mountains and marathons. I dream of traveling the world and being a missionary. I dream of being an amazing teacher. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my life! I am content. But there is a part of me that longs to be extraordinary.
The solution is that I can do ordinary things extraordinarily! I can show my husband how much I love him by doing laundry, cooking, and cleaning enthusiastically. I can make sure that our home is a safe haven filled with love, peace, and joy. I can turn ordinary moments with Christopher into life-changing, forever memories. I can write a blog that might impact a life somewhere along the way. I can sing and play piano and guitar for an audience of One. I can run with a smile on my face, loving every minute and not worrying about how fast or how far I go, and hopefully inspire others as I run. I can be a missionary in my classroom and at my school and in my community. I can teach biology with great joy and give life lessons and love to my students. I can love deeply and wholeheartedly.
Maybe I won't ever do anything that is book or movie worthy and I am ok with that. But, I will live an extraordinary life!
The solution is that I can do ordinary things extraordinarily! I can show my husband how much I love him by doing laundry, cooking, and cleaning enthusiastically. I can make sure that our home is a safe haven filled with love, peace, and joy. I can turn ordinary moments with Christopher into life-changing, forever memories. I can write a blog that might impact a life somewhere along the way. I can sing and play piano and guitar for an audience of One. I can run with a smile on my face, loving every minute and not worrying about how fast or how far I go, and hopefully inspire others as I run. I can be a missionary in my classroom and at my school and in my community. I can teach biology with great joy and give life lessons and love to my students. I can love deeply and wholeheartedly.
Maybe I won't ever do anything that is book or movie worthy and I am ok with that. But, I will live an extraordinary life!
Thursday, May 1, 2014
symbiotic relationships
Relationships are my thing...I've even been called a relationship nerd! Recently, I was teaching a lesson to my 9th grade biology students on symbiotic relationships. Symbiotic relationships are between two organisms of different species who live in the same environment. There are three types of symbiosis: mutualism, commensalism, and parasitism. In each situation, at least one of the organisms benefits. A mutualistic relationship benefits both organisms. In commensalism, one benefits and the other is neither helped nor harmed. Parasitism benefits one and harms the other. One of my students asked, "Are there any relationships where no one benefits?" I quickly responded, "What would be the point of relationship if no one benefited from it?" I paused and let that soak into my brain...true for symbiotic relationships and human relationships too.
This ecology lesson caused me to look at my relationships in a different light. Parasitism is not a relationship I want to have. I've been the person who was harmed (not going back there again!), and I would NEVER want to be the cause of that for someone else. I am blessed with mutualistic relationships, but my heart is to pursue commensalism. I want to seek the benefit and blessing of the other person without need or expectation of reciprocation. I want to give unselfishly and wholeheartedly while I allow God to fill me with everything He has and everything I need. I'm human, but I am praying to be more like Jesus and filled with Him!
This ecology lesson caused me to look at my relationships in a different light. Parasitism is not a relationship I want to have. I've been the person who was harmed (not going back there again!), and I would NEVER want to be the cause of that for someone else. I am blessed with mutualistic relationships, but my heart is to pursue commensalism. I want to seek the benefit and blessing of the other person without need or expectation of reciprocation. I want to give unselfishly and wholeheartedly while I allow God to fill me with everything He has and everything I need. I'm human, but I am praying to be more like Jesus and filled with Him!
Friday, April 18, 2014
Crazy Love
I've been rereading the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. (I highly recommend it!) I've been convicted and challenged to love God and people differently. God offered me (and you) love that we struggle to comprehend and sometimes have a hard time receiving. John 3:16...For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. Romans 5:8...But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. I John 4:9-10...This is how God showed His love among us: He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Let the reality of God's love sink deeply into your heart and spirit. Amazing love...undeserved and yet given freely. All we have to do is receive it. It is so easy, and yet we make it so difficult! We try to fill the hole in us that can only be filled with Jesus' love with human love. We try to earn God's love. We forget how blessed we are to be on the receiving end of Divine Love.
The challenge that has been placed in front of me is to love God with all my heart, all my mind, and all my strength and to love people with the "crazy love" of God. I want to give God the best of me...my time, my attention, my worship. I want to wholeheartedly love people with out expectation of reciprocation and to love even those who dislike me. And this is where I fall apart. I have been given a great gift...the ability to love without limits...but I expect others to love the same way and I am disappointed. God is teaching me to love HIS way...freely and wholeheartedly...and to let Him protect my heart from hurt. I am choosing God's way...to love Him with all that I am and to let His love flow freely through me!
The challenge that has been placed in front of me is to love God with all my heart, all my mind, and all my strength and to love people with the "crazy love" of God. I want to give God the best of me...my time, my attention, my worship. I want to wholeheartedly love people with out expectation of reciprocation and to love even those who dislike me. And this is where I fall apart. I have been given a great gift...the ability to love without limits...but I expect others to love the same way and I am disappointed. God is teaching me to love HIS way...freely and wholeheartedly...and to let Him protect my heart from hurt. I am choosing God's way...to love Him with all that I am and to let His love flow freely through me!
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Believe the truth and destroy the lies!
I am emerging from what might be the darkest time of my life. The truth is that I am so blessed! I have an amazing husband and an adorable son. I have family and friends who love and support me. I have a job that I love. I have been given so much, but I am not safe from the attack of my spiritual enemy. One of my pastors described the darkness as a black box covering my head. It was filled with manure...the lies that I was believing about myself. I was blinded by the lies that were barraging me. I couldn't see out and I couldn't see Jesus. I needed help! I went to my pastors. One of them helped me get rid of the box on my head...as simple as taking it off and destroying it. My other pastor replaced the lies that I had been believing about myself with the truth. Deception is a crazy thing...it looks so real and so truthful that we believe it. It is one of the most successful weapons of the enemy. Deception drives us to desperate acts trying to escape. For the first time in my life, I understand why people would choose the unthinkable.
Is my battle over? No, it is just beginning. It is a constant war to fill my mind with the truth of God rather than with the lies of the enemy. It isn't easy, and I find myself falling into a pit of untruth daily. I have to be aware and I have to choose wisely. I have to fight...no one can fight for me, but I need people who are close to my heart who are brave enough to speak the truth with love and encouragement. My weapon of choice is my Bible. In it are the truths that replace the lies and soothe my spirit. I am going to fight!
Lie: I have no purpose.
Truth: For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Truth: Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. I Corinthians 15:58
Lie: I am unlovable.
Truth: For God so loved Dawn that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
Truth: For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39
Truth: For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made: Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14
Lie: I don't belong.
Truth: Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as He wanted them to be. Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. I Corinthians 12:14, 18, 27
Lie: It is hopeless.
Truth: May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
Lie: Everyone is against me.
Truth: What then shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31
Lie: I am afraid. I can't do this.
Truth: Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go! Joshua 1:9
Truth: The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1
Truth: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Lie: I have nothing to give.
Truth: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Galatians 5:22
I will continue to fight! I will not give in! Thanks be to God! He gives me the victory through my Lord Jesus Christ! (I Corinthians 15:57)
Is my battle over? No, it is just beginning. It is a constant war to fill my mind with the truth of God rather than with the lies of the enemy. It isn't easy, and I find myself falling into a pit of untruth daily. I have to be aware and I have to choose wisely. I have to fight...no one can fight for me, but I need people who are close to my heart who are brave enough to speak the truth with love and encouragement. My weapon of choice is my Bible. In it are the truths that replace the lies and soothe my spirit. I am going to fight!
Lie: I have no purpose.
Truth: For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Truth: Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. I Corinthians 15:58
Lie: I am unlovable.
Truth: For God so loved Dawn that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
Truth: For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39
Truth: For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made: Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14
Lie: I don't belong.
Truth: Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as He wanted them to be. Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. I Corinthians 12:14, 18, 27
Lie: It is hopeless.
Truth: May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
Lie: Everyone is against me.
Truth: What then shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31
Lie: I am afraid. I can't do this.
Truth: Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go! Joshua 1:9
Truth: The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1
Truth: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Lie: I have nothing to give.
Truth: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Galatians 5:22
I will continue to fight! I will not give in! Thanks be to God! He gives me the victory through my Lord Jesus Christ! (I Corinthians 15:57)
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Be strong and courageous!
Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:6-9
Joshua 1 is one of my favorite chapters of the Bible. I often feel like Joshua. Leading students into the promised land...the land of responsible adulthood...I face obstacles, criticism, and giants. Bringing encouragement to my friends...and helping them see their own promised lands...I struggle with my own fear and discouragement. There is opposition at every turn. I lose sight of God and His precious promises. God promised Joshua that no one would be able to stand against him and that God Himself would never leave or forsake Joshua. A promise that I can hold onto for myself! I will be strong and courageous!
Joshua 1 is one of my favorite chapters of the Bible. I often feel like Joshua. Leading students into the promised land...the land of responsible adulthood...I face obstacles, criticism, and giants. Bringing encouragement to my friends...and helping them see their own promised lands...I struggle with my own fear and discouragement. There is opposition at every turn. I lose sight of God and His precious promises. God promised Joshua that no one would be able to stand against him and that God Himself would never leave or forsake Joshua. A promise that I can hold onto for myself! I will be strong and courageous!
Friday, February 7, 2014
Friend
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. Proverbs 17:17
If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up. Ecclesiastes 4:10
My life is blessed with good friends! Friends who have seen the good, the bad, and the ugly in the life of Dawn Marie Karr and have stuck around. That is the kind of friend that I want to be. I want to be the friend who loves at all times...good, bad, or ugly. I want to be the friend who helps her friends up when they fall. I want to be the friend who sets aside her own desires to meet the needs of others. I want to be the friend who listens, encourages, and prays. I want to come alongside my friends and walk through tough times with them.
I only know one person who can consistently be that friend...my friend, Jesus. I need more of Him. With Jesus shining through me, I can be a better friend. My heart's desire is to make a difference in the lives of my friends and to be called a friend of God. Give me Jesus!
If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up. Ecclesiastes 4:10
My life is blessed with good friends! Friends who have seen the good, the bad, and the ugly in the life of Dawn Marie Karr and have stuck around. That is the kind of friend that I want to be. I want to be the friend who loves at all times...good, bad, or ugly. I want to be the friend who helps her friends up when they fall. I want to be the friend who sets aside her own desires to meet the needs of others. I want to be the friend who listens, encourages, and prays. I want to come alongside my friends and walk through tough times with them.
I only know one person who can consistently be that friend...my friend, Jesus. I need more of Him. With Jesus shining through me, I can be a better friend. My heart's desire is to make a difference in the lives of my friends and to be called a friend of God. Give me Jesus!
Friday, January 31, 2014
Celebrate!
I love to celebrate! Holidays, birthdays, milestones, accomplishments, and everyday things are all reasons for celebration. I come from a long line of celebrators. My Grandma Lois could turn anything into a party. Every Thanksgiving, she would sit the grand kids at the table and put us to work polishing her spoon collection. She made it so much fun, that we looked forward to the annual tradition! I learned the celebratory attitude well. As a senior in high school, my friend Sharon and I would have "Monday parties", "Tuesday parties", etc. I can celebrate anything!
My absolutely favorite celebrations are birthdays. It's the one day in a year that is dedicated to celebrating the life of a specific person...a day to get away with spoiling someone and showing (and hopefully saying) how important they are! It's a time to bless a life and reflect on lessons learned.
So what is the bottom line here? People who are important to me should be celebrated every day...not just on birthdays! My own life should be celebrated by me! And I should be looking for reasons to celebrate every day...and I try to, but sometimes I get overwhelmed by life and the tasks that it requires me to do. On cold, cloudy, snowy days, it is hard for me to find things to celebrate. I am going to be more intentional. I will find things to celebrate each day! And I will share the celebration if you happen to be around!
My absolutely favorite celebrations are birthdays. It's the one day in a year that is dedicated to celebrating the life of a specific person...a day to get away with spoiling someone and showing (and hopefully saying) how important they are! It's a time to bless a life and reflect on lessons learned.
So what is the bottom line here? People who are important to me should be celebrated every day...not just on birthdays! My own life should be celebrated by me! And I should be looking for reasons to celebrate every day...and I try to, but sometimes I get overwhelmed by life and the tasks that it requires me to do. On cold, cloudy, snowy days, it is hard for me to find things to celebrate. I am going to be more intentional. I will find things to celebrate each day! And I will share the celebration if you happen to be around!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Struggle
Struggle...not a typical word I want to live by. In fact, I have done everything in my power to avoid struggle! But, I have recently realized the character and the strength that comes from struggling. Yesterday, I was running uphill against the wind and I thought, this is how life feels. It's a battle to get to the top of the hill and it seems like forever before I get there. Why would I do that to myself? Why would I choose to struggle up the hill? Because I know that it will make me stronger...my heart, my lungs, my skeletal muscles, my bones...all of me will become stronger as I continue to challenge myself with running.
Life brings struggles my way...I rarely go looking for them! Colon cancer made me a survivor, taught me gratitude, and convinced me that God loves me and He does miracles! The five year struggle after college with depression, letting go of my plans, and trying to find a job taught me that God's ways and His plans are so much better than mine! The day to day struggles of balancing being a wife, mom, teacher, friend, and Christian sometimes feel like losing battles to me. I struggle to be better at every role that I fill and I am often frustrated by how human and limited I am, but Jesus uses my every day challenges to make me stronger if I will let Him.
I am choosing to embrace the struggles and to enjoy the challenge of getting to the top of the mountain! I will be better...I will be stronger...I will be more like Jesus! And the view from the top will be breathtaking!
Life brings struggles my way...I rarely go looking for them! Colon cancer made me a survivor, taught me gratitude, and convinced me that God loves me and He does miracles! The five year struggle after college with depression, letting go of my plans, and trying to find a job taught me that God's ways and His plans are so much better than mine! The day to day struggles of balancing being a wife, mom, teacher, friend, and Christian sometimes feel like losing battles to me. I struggle to be better at every role that I fill and I am often frustrated by how human and limited I am, but Jesus uses my every day challenges to make me stronger if I will let Him.
I am choosing to embrace the struggles and to enjoy the challenge of getting to the top of the mountain! I will be better...I will be stronger...I will be more like Jesus! And the view from the top will be breathtaking!
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