comfortable in my skin

"I wish I was comfortable in my skin" was my thought this morning as I dried my hair.  I'll be 46 in a few months, and you'd think that I would have that figured out...at least I think I should!  My skin has freckles, smile lines (aka wrinkles), and scars...so many scars from surgeries and running wipe outs.  None of those things really bother me and I don't even try to hide them.  What does bother me is the extra adipose tissue (aka fat) under my skin...just being honest.  It's been a lifelong battle for me...one that I'm genetically programmed to be in.  Yikes!  This isn't going to be a weight loss and fitness blog...it's an issue that's deeper than that for me.

Why can't I look at myself the same way I look at the people that I love?  When I think of the people in my heart, I think of their hearts and souls and who they are underneath their skin.  I love the people that God made them to be.  Why don't I love myself the same way?  Why don't I look past my superficial flaws and love the deep girl inside that is fearfully and wonderfully made by God?

I have some choices to make.  Stop comparing.  Stop letting the numbers on the scale and my clothes define me.  Look for the beautiful person inside me, just like I do with anyone else.  Be Dawn Marie Karr and let Jesus shine through me.  Be comfortable in my own skin!