Being amazing

Amazing: causing great surprise or wonder (Merriam Webster's dictionary)

For as long as I can remember, I have wanted my life to be amazing.  I want to travel the world and see spectacular places.  I want to create poetry, or music, or art that would speak to someones soul.  I want to win a race or run a marathon.  I want to do something that matters; something that would change the world.  Something that would shout, "Here is a person with an amazing life!"

If you look at my life, it appears to be filled with ordinary things.  I've seen it that way too.  God is teaching me to see the amazing in my life.  Maybe no one else will ever see it, but God sees it.  I see my amazing life in my marriage.  My wonderful husband chose ME as his life-partner and he loves ME!  Our life together is amazing!  I see amazing when I look at our son, who isn't supposed to exist according to medical opinions, and see the thoughtful and caring young man that he is becoming.  I see an amazing life when I think of my closest friends; friendships forged through time and struggles.  I see amazing when I remember that I am a cancer survivor.  I promised myself that I would never stop being grateful, and yet, I need to be reminded.  I see my amazing life when I watch my students smile and hug me in the hall, and when I see them return to visit years later.  I see my amazing life when I read in the Bible that God loves me so much that He gave His only Son.

I still want to travel, and write poetry and music, and run a marathon, and change the world.  Maybe I will someday, but I already have an amazing life!